Thursday, May 21, 2009

a piece of the puzzle, two broken hearts

It comes at no surprise at all, but yet when it does happen, we always seem to act surprised.  Maybe, it's a mixture of being surprised, and or simply amazed?  Which ever it may be, I am grateful. 

Today.

Today, was a bittersweet beginning in a new door opening up for me.  

Surprised?  

No!

Amazed?

Absolutely.  

I knew this is where I would be some how, some way, ALL MY LIFE.  

I only never knew HOW it would come to be.  

I knew that I would be working with children, and children of all sizes, with a little bit more favoritism leaning towards newborns.  I have such a big heart and love for children.  

However, I never knew what it entailed.  

When in school and trying to decide what I would be when I grew up, I said "a pediatrician."  In fact, I followed a pediatrician around as part of career day at school. I loved every minute of it. 

As time and life would have it, I became interested in other things. Like wanting to be a Marine Biologist, just so I could swim with dolphins.  Or, a veterinarian, so I could work with animals.  And then modeling and acting.  

Yes, I have wanted to model and act since about the 5th grade.  I could share many funny stories (and pictures) of our 'modeling and acting' moments back in the day.  Pretty funny stuff. 

Anyway, as time and life would have it.... 

I have been modeling and acting for the last 12 years of my life.  

But...

My love and passion for children NEVER was far behind on my heart and mind.  

I knew it was part of me, a piece of my life puzzle, that I would end up some how, some way, working with children.  And part of me knew it would most likely be in an hospital setting, but again, just couldn't get the details laid out in my head.  It was always something I felt inside. It was not something that I went after, and or said that I was going to do. It was always playing in my head and laying on my heart, and I didn't know why.  

I would try to listen to it and see if I was being told something. Only to find myself right back where I started, with just a flash of a vision, and a feeling inside.  

Do you ever find yourself stopping and taking a moment to look back on a year ago from the present? 

I personally have never been a person to do that, but I have noticed that I have been doing that more often, and today was one of those days. 

On my way home, while lost in thought and conversing with God, another piece of the puzzle fell into place.  

It was no accident that one year ago, April, that Morgan had a heart murmur and defect.  

It was no accident that the day my friend and pediatrician heard Morgan's heart defect and murmur, that he made a personal call to the pediatric cardiologist he wanted Morgan to be seen by.  

It was no accident, that very moment he was calling Dr. S. to discuss when he could see Morgan, that Dr. S. said that he is right down the street, bringing his little girl in to Dr. P. (the pediatrician) to look at her ear, that was in a lot of pain.  (ALL ON A SATURDAY!)

It was no accident, that a year later, I take Morgan into see Dr. S., only to be told that she was discharged.  That her heart defect and murmur where closed and gone.  I still get a smile on my face and a rush that through my body when I think of that moment and those words. "DISCHARGED!"  I am so thankful and give God all the praise.  

It was no accident that through all my curiosity and questioning of Morgan's heart to Dr. S. at what would be our last visit, that our conversation some how led to volunteer work with children, to photography and so forth.  

It was no mistake that Dr. S. took that conversation and then put me in touch with Dr. M. at Joe DiMaggio's Children's Hospital. 

And in which it was no accident, that I met with Dr. M. and his staff today. Getting the opportunity to tell him of two organizations that I feel God has placed on my heart to either be a part of, and or begin my own organization here in Fort Lauderdale, FL. similar to the two.  (Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep and Flashes of Hope) Only be told that neither of these organizations exist here in Fort Lauderdale Florida. 

It was no accident, that I started to really get serious and following my passion in photography...um.... one year ago, as well. 

It was no accident, that all of these things took one year to get to today, giving me the opportunity to work on and develop (self teaching) myself in photography. 

And, so here I am today.  

At Joe DiMaggio's Children's Hospital.  

It was no accident, that I kept having a voice say to me "take your camera, just in case." 

It was no accident, that when I arrived and met Dr. M. and Mrs. B.,  were excited that I did bring in my camera, while they hesitated on calling me or not, to ask me bring it.  

I wasn't going to bring it. After all it was simply just a meeting.  

It was no accident.  

Today friends, I had the privilege, honor and bittersweet opportunity to photograph my first session of two broken hearts

1) I photographed a beautiful baby boy, only four days old and weighing little under six pounds.  When looking at him, you would only see a handsome healthy baby boy.  Except, this little boy was alone in the hospital, while waiting for his heart to stop and for him to die.  I can't speak for his parents, for I do not judge, nor do I know their situation.  All I do know is that they left the hospital empty handed, and said they would not be back.  This little boy, I saw laying so tiny and sweet, all alone in a big hospital crib. Hooked up to machines, and simply waiting to die. His heart is broken, and can not be fixed. Today,  I was honored to photograph him for his family, and for the bulletin board in the hospital.  He will not leave and die alone, without leaving his foot and hand print in the hearts of mine, and the staff at JDCH.   
 

2)  I also had the privilege and honor to photograph a precious 11 day old baby girl.  She has a twin brother, in which is back home in another state, while she and their newly adopted parents were here while she had open heart surgery.  She was so tiny, sleeping so peacefully and her sad little body had been cut open all the way down from her neck to almost her belly button.  Her heart was also broken, but she was provided the opportunity to have hers surgically made whole again.  

One Boy, One Broken Heart..... ONE CHILD DYING.

One Girl, One Broken Heart..... ONE CHILD GOING HOME TO HER NEW PARENTS AND TWIN BROTHER.

All, another piece of the puzzle

The puzzle; being the PLAN, that God has already designed and created for me.  

While driving down the road, after photographing two different babies, two different broken hearts and two different endings.

I saw a flash of my future and a piece of my life's puzzle fall into place.....

And although I compare it to one year ago.  It was laid out before I ever took my first breath.
 
My God is an awesome God, and he continues to "woo" me. 

*NOTE* Out of respect and the privacy of both families, or until I get release forms from either family, I will not post pictures of the children at this time.  

However, to not leave you empty handed with a picture-less post, here is a foot from one baby and the hand from the other.  

And, I already received an email tonight, that the hospital is excited to have me aboard, and I have three other families to photograph next week.  

Thank you, God, for this day and for this new door that has opened for me.  I am honored to be serving you and helping others.  Thank you for this gift you have given me.


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15 Personal Thoughts:

nowamomoffour said...

I always read your blog, but usually don't have time to comment! I am sitting here tonight and just read your post and it made me cry! How awesome that you have been gifted such a beautiful talent. And even more awesome than that is that you are using it for such a great area of ministry! Your story is awesome. I am going to be really excited to follow your blog and see where the Lord leads you!

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

How beautiful and exciting for you....
I knew you had a heart for children...Please read my post today and pray for sweet Maggie. My heart is broken for her family.....

CIRCLE OF LIFE said...

Misty as a heart ache as it was todo that the glory goes to God for it was a mierical that it even happened and what a honor that you misty were chosen by him to be the kind hearted mother of two to be a inpirespration to them to lift someone up in the fact that yes all things can happen if you believe in Jesus and that this was a gift weather they believe it or not. Life is like a deck of cards . God is always the hero cause you are indeed here however he deals . and he only deals what we are given . he gives and he takes . but he gave you a kind heart . i believe that he set you apart from every one else your heart is just filled with love and you are doing what you want to and heading in teh direction you want to i could not be any happier for you my friend .

love ya . call me later we need chillies this week can we say fried chicken? ahem .

i support you and you for a reason was there yesterday can we say right place right time .

CIRCLE OF LIFE said...

Submit to God and be at peace with him; in this way prosperity will come to you. Accept instruction from his mouth and lay up his words in your heart.

Job 22 : 21-22

Alicia said...

What a beautiful talent you have! And what an awesome opportunity as well. What an amazing God we have!

Matt, Joy and Ryder said...

Beautiful...may this journey bring you continued peace, hope and faithfulness....

GamecockQueen said...

You are so very tenderhearted and so special! That breaks my heart about the little boy :(

I just got an invitation today to visit Camp Kemo this summer...should be a good time!! Those kids are all so special :-D

Following Him said...

It is no accident that God has brought you to these sweet families. It is no accident that you can capture memories. It is no accident that you are unique and caring. It is no accident that you are a photographer!!
~Elyse

mommaof4wife2r said...

misty...i am beyond awe in the amazing work of God...i love it!!!! thank you for using the gifts God has so graciously given to us...crazy love he has for us...and i'm so glad we can share that joy with you...

Karen said...

Misty,

I am sobbing on the inside that this baby cannot have surgery. (My kids are watching me, so I don't want to fall apart.) I can't imagine what his defect is that they can't do ANY surgery at all. I want that baby! My own baby was born with only 3/4 of a heart, and although she is not "fixed", she has a functioning heart.

I want that baby. Atleast he could have a home for awhile, and we could wait for God to perform a miracle.

Blessings from the Reeds said...

I am in awe how God works! What an amazing Father we have. To see Him using your gifts to reach out to others. Know that I will be praying for you and His plans for you. Of course, for these beautiful babies that He has created too.

What an awesome God we serve.

Aspiemom said...

I have so little time on the computer lately, but I'm glad I decided to check your blog and was able to read this. It moved me to tears. What you are doing is so bitter-sweet. To see the pain and feel the grief, but to give such a wonderful gift to these families that is priceless.

Bless you, Misty. I'll respond to your emails soon...when I have more time on here.

Keri said...

Wow!!! That's all I can say, wow!!

I LOVE what God is doing with you and your heart for kids. I love that you recognize the work He has been doing in your for a year. I love that sweet Morgan got to be a catalyst in realizing your calling.

This post was very encouraging to me.....in many ways. I can not wait to see you next week! I'm assuming you'll have camera in hand for baby dedication next Sunday??

I'll see you then!

Rae said...

Wow. This is beautiful. Sad, but beautiful. I am glad that God is so clearly blessing you in order to bless others.

I don't yet know what the puzzle piece will be for me, but I am so glad that you can work with and for children this way. It makes it seem as if there is a little good in these heartbreaking situations.

The Pifer's said...

I just absolutely LOVE your blog!!!!!! This post, like many others of yours, is BEAUTIFUL!!!

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