No such thing

as perfect people.

I owe everyone an apology. As I said in my last post, I have never fasted before. Ever. With having never fasted before, I also didn't know that when you do choose to fast, you are not supposed to tell others, or share it or 'boast' about it.

I wasn't boasting about it on my blog. My heart is not of that nature. I was simply giving everyone the explanation why I wouldn't be on my blog, Facebook or Twitter, so when you didn't receive a reply from me, you knew it was because I was away.

I apologize for not knowing the scripture more on this, but now I do and I have learned.

Thank you all for the prayers, emails, comments and support. Sometimes you can feel so alone in this world, right? Thank God for not letting us actually BE alone in this world.

I am back, and boy did I have an interesting week. I am pretty tired today, as I had a pretty rough night last night.

I continue to need your prayers. I really do.

I'll share when the time is right, but don't worry, GOD knows exactly what I am dealing with. He knows my hurts, my fears and my hearts plea.

I do need a miracle.

God may have decided to close that door for me, and that's okay. I am still blessed and I still believe with all my heart and soul that He has GREATER things ahead for me. I have to keep my head up and my strength up for that.

This morning I ended up over sleeping an hour and my son was late to school. Although, he didn't seem to mind. I was that exhausted after my day and evening yesterday. I woke up this morning feeling like I have been hit with a ton of bricks, and the bricks are all just sticking to me like this huge massive weight as I walk around. Ugh.

But this morning while making up the beds I heard this song come on 'Perfect People' and it caught my ear and I know God was saying hello to me and reminding me that 'there are no such thing as perfect people" and that I am free from trying to find away to be perfect. I am free of trying to be the perfect wife. I will never be. I am free from trying to be the perfect mother. I will never be. I am free from being the perfect women. I will never be.

But I am "fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalms 139:14

Never let them see you when you're breaking

And never let them see you when you fall

That's how we live

And that's how we try

Tell the world you've got it all together

And never let them see what's underneath

We cover it up with a crooked smile

But it only lasts for a little while

There's no such thing as perfect people

There's no such thing as a perfect life

So come as you are, broken and scarred

Lift up your heart and be amazed

And be changed by a perfect God, yeah

Suddenly it's like a weight is lifted

When you hear the words that you are loved

He knows where you are and where you've been

And you never have to go there again, no

There's no such thing as perfect people

And there's no such thing as a perfect life

So come as you are, broken and scarred

Lift up your heart and be amazed

And be changed by a perfect God

Who lived and died to give new life

To heal our imperfections

So look up and see love

And let grace be enough, oh

There's no such thing as perfect people, yeah

There's no such thing as a perfect life

So come as you are, broken and scarred

Lift up your heart and be amazed

And be changed by a perfect God

By a perfect God, yeah

By a perfect God, yeah

By a perfect God

By a perfect God

Be changed by a perfect God

Be changed

You know how often in life when it rains..... it POURS!

Well our trip to Disney was no exception.

This gives you a little idea of what my trip to Disney World was like with the kids. I'll post more pics and more upbeat post here soon. I haven't fully gone off the deep end. I am trying to keep my spirits focused on God and the bigger picture, although right now, in the midst of the storms.... I feel like I could die. And a part of me has.