Monday, April 28, 2008

To breast-feed or not ---

Well I personally am pro-breast-feeding.  I breast fed Hunter for about 5 months.  It wasn't always easy and yes it was indeed very painful.  However my little man was very much worth it and I wanted to be the best mom, giving my child the best form of food.

I very much wanted to provide the same to my little princess and gave it my best.  However it turned out really bad for me.  I ended up with a breast infection, running high fever, with chills and flu like symptoms. Along with that I was bleeding, crack nipples and engorged liked you wouldn't believe.  I was in so much pain I wanted to cry the thought of her next feeding (which was every hour and half or less for she would often like to just nurse as if I was a pacifier).  Showers were not fun, getting dressed was not fun, trying to lay her on my chest to burp or snuggle with was not fun.  So I did what I thought was best and stopped after a long hard week of trying and put her on formula. 

You want to talk about feeling guilty.  Try looking at your baby who is very upset and confused as to why mommy is rejecting her breast milk and sticking this bottle in her mouth.  She did not like it at all at first.  However she has adjusted well and is gaining perfectly.  

Now that she is using bottle other family members get a joy out of the feeding bonding and I get to enjoy her a lot more with less pain.  Here are just a few shots of her getting to be fed by loved ones.

4 Personal Thoughts:

Megan Rhodes-Sommer said...

bless your heart... im sorry that it didnt work out for you... i know you gave it your all...hang in ther babe...meg

Jason, Allison & Charlotte said...

Try not to feel guilty. I know first hand the agony... I had a lactation consultant tell me that she'd never seen nipples look as much like hamburger meat as mine did. :o( They didn't heal up until the 8th or 9th week. It was a NIGHTMARE. It hurt so bad that I thought I would pass out, each and every feeding. We came through it and are doing fine now, but I don't know that I could do it again. Certainly not with another child to look after.

April said...

no, no, guilt allowed on this one. it happens to all of us!! With Mick, plenty of milk, but he wouldn't latch properly, with Kaila she latched great and I had nothing! She got the most important stuff anyways!!

Anonymous said...

I had a similar situation Misty, and I definitely dealt with the whole guilt thing... But truly, there is no reason for you to feel guilty. Morgan needs her mommy to be healthy and happy more than anything else!

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