His Will Wednesday

I'm typing from my phone in bed with a little angel, while visiting
with my family in Texas.

I meant to post date this weeks HWW, but it didn't happen so we are
going to go with the flow and have it this way this week.

I have received everyones emails and know I have and am praying.

Below is a picture of Amanda, a little girl I was supposed to have
photographed before my camera broke. She lost her fight and earned her
wings this morning.

My heart aches for this family and I am sad that I missed the chance
to meet this little princess and photograph her.

As I lay next to my little princess, a family is deeply hurting with a
loss of their princess. Please pray for Amanda's family, she was just
a month shy of her 2nd birthday I think.

His Will Wednesday

Do you have a prayer, need, request or a thanks for an answered prayer and need a safe place to share it?  

You have come to the right place.  A christian faith blog, with a ton of prayer worriers.  If you are hurting, struggling, healing, changing, trying, worried, happy, thankful, stressed, angry, confused, scared, sick, sad, unsure and even lost. 

It doesn't matter, because HIS love is deeper than anything you are going through or experiencing. You just need to trust Him enough, believe in Him enough, and even allow Him enough to show up in your life and prayers.  

Please leave your prayer request in the comment section, and know that people are reading them and praying for you.  And I once read and LOVED this little chain idea.  If you do not read all prayer request, while you post your own request, will you please take the time to say a prayer for the person right above your comment?  

I personally will read each and everyone myself and pray over them.  

plastic pearls (Biblical Advice in Difficult Times)

A four year old little girl attends a class, in which she makes new friends.  All her friends have these bracelets simply made of a string and some plastic pearls.  The little girl goes home and tells her mom how she would really like a pearl bracelet.  Her mom tells her that if she saves up some money, she can purchase herself a pearl bracelet.  Finally, the little girl raised $4.00 and asked her mom if she could now purchase her very own pearl bracelet.  The mother took her to the store, she purchased her $3.99 bracelet and wore it the next day to show to her friends.  She was so excited about that bracelet that she wore it every day, in her sleep and never took it off.   

Her dad came into her room one night to tuck her in, and he asked her, "do you trust daddy?".  "Yes daddy, I trust you" she replied.  "Can if have your pearls" he asked? "No, daddy, not my pearls" she replied.  He smiled, kissed her head and turned out the light. 

The next night her daddy comes in, sits down next to her on her bed and again asks "do you trust daddy?" "Yes daddy, I trust you", as she reaches and covers up her pearl bracelet.  "Can I have your pearls" he asked.  "No daddy, not my pearls, no" she replied.  He leaned in gave her a kiss good night and left the room.

The third night her daddy walks in and looks at her, and before he says anything the little girl is already placing her hand over her pearls to protect them, for she already knew what he is about to ask her.  He sits down and smiles at her and again asks "do you trust daddy?" Yes, daddy I trust you" while she slowly slips off her bracelet and hands them over to her daddy with a slight frown on her face.  When all of the sudden her daddy smiles, takes her plastic pearls and puts them in one pocket, reaches in his other pocket and pulls out a real pearl bracelet for her.  

Her eyes light up and a smile covers her face, as she jumps up and gives her daddy a big hug.  

This is how God, our heavenly father wants us to trust him.  Trust him in every way, including the finances if your life.  God can teach and show all of us how to plan ahead and prepare and live a recession proof life, while also growing and building an empire for us.  

The bible doesn't speak only about tithing ten percent of all your earnings.  Unfortunately, it is about all you hear in the church and from pastors when they do speak on money.  Well, not at our church, and many other modern and fast growing churches out there today.  They are changing that bad reputation.

Money is such a sensitive subject for EVERYONE rich or not.  A lot of churches have gotten to where they are so careful about how they speak about money and how often, because of the history and bad reputations on churches in the past hounding people for their money, that they avoid this topic more than they should.  

Although these hip and fast growing churches have tip toed around this topic, they have finally realized that by not talking to their people and sharing biblical truth about how God tells us many times all throughout the bible how to manage and be responsible with our finances. They in return are not telling the whole truth of what God has to say and that is sin itself. 

Our church www.cbglades.com just did an amazing series called "Recession Proof Life." Each week they gave out boxes and thousands of dollars worth of food to hungry hurting families, struggling to stay above water in this economy.  So many of our church family members have lost homes, jobs, marriages and they have no where to run or turn to except the church family for hope, faith and help.  

At the end of "The Recession Proof Life" they offered a financial seminar to anyone interested for a really low cost, to listen to Dave Ramsey speak on Life.Money.Hope, Biblical Advice in Difficult Times.  He is a familiar face on FOX news.  

Mark and I attended this seminar, and I am so glad we did.  You see, Mark and I would like to think that we are ahead of the game because we do not have debt.  We are not in financial debt.  Most people coming to these things are in serious financial debt.  We wanted to attend as a married couple to hear more on the biblical side of things and how God intended for us to handle our finances for our family and our future.  We don't save.  We aren't putting anything back and we aren't building our empire for our children and our children's children.  We are basically living month to month and running out of what we bring in.  Not good, and not biblical.  It's poor management of what isn't even ours to begin with. 

I felt we learned a lot at this seminar, and I know that not everyone has the chance or the opportunity to attend one of their own.  I thought I would share some important biblical things that was spoken by Dave Ramsey at the seminar we attended here in my blog, so that maybe it will get you motivated to start getting a hold of your own financial struggles, mishaps, debt and stress in your home, your marriage and your life.  I want to share the help that we have received, and are putting to use in our own home and marriage. If we can do it, so can you, even if you do have a ton of debt to start with.  

I do suggest though that should you have the opportunity to attend a financial seminar, especially if Dave Ramsey can be heard, to attend on a video or in person, to do so.  Not only was he entertaining, but he put a fun spin on things, while giving you the GOD truth about your finances. While also sharing his own personal experiences from having nothing, to having millions, to having nothing again, to having multi millions now. 

Although, I can share with you some important steps to begin with here in this post today, or you can attend financial seminars all you want.  Unless you take GOD, your finances, your family and your marriage serious enough, none of it will matter and you will keep struggling, stay in debt, and it will be no ones fault but your own.  It won't be your spouses fault, your kids fault, your jobs fault, your bosses fault, your college debts fault or the presidents fault.  By listening and following God's basic biblical financial advice, you can out smart and out finance anyone.  

You ready? 

Session One:

1.  Get out of DEBT (first things first)... DEBT = RISK. 

"The rich rule over the poor, and the borrower is the slave of the lender." Proverbs 22:7 (NRSV)

By borrowing and having debt, you allow the lender to be master of you. God says you are to only have one master, and that is HIM.  You can't focus on the ONE master, if you are being pulled and slaved by another (i.e. "master"cards!! lol) When you are in debt you have a ball and chain on your feet and your life isn't going to go very far at all.  In fact, it will eventually get so heaving to carry that burden "ball and chain" you will eventually give up and be swallowed up by your debt.  

GET OUT OF DEBT.

Find away.

Get rid of things, cut down on expenses and live BELOW your means for a little while (or long while) in life.  You may think its too hard to start, and it will be.  Just as you start, the devil is going to jump in and try to make things harder and mess things up even more so. Just when you start to clear your debt and live a biblical financial life, something is going to go wrong.  The car is going to break down,  a kid may get sick or an unexpected bill will arrive.  Be ready for it, but don't fear it.  TRUST in GOD, and know you will get through it.  

Sell things.  Maybe rethink about the cost of your car(s) you are driving.  Budget.  And start knocking out that debt one small step at a time.  

In order to feel victory, in what normally can feel like an endless scam or trap, start small.  Pay off and get rid of your debt starting at the bottom.  If you have multiple credit cards, pay the smallest balances off first and quick as possible.  Give yourself a WIN.  Before you know it, that WIN, starts a snowball effect, and with having that small balance paid off, you suddenly realize you have a little extra to pay the next balance above that.  Pay a little more than the minimum and do that as often as you can until you can pay it off in full.   Just by getting that first and second debt paid off will feel amazingly great. Its a very powerful and freeing feeling, and with that comes motivation.  

2.  Act your WAYS.  

"A foolish man devours all he has." Proverbs 21:20 (NIV)

Don't act what you are not.  Don't act rich, when you are not.  Don't try to impress people with things, that you can't afford, when in truth you don't even really like those that you are trying to impress.  

Dave Ramsey made a joke about those sitting in a fancy car at the red light, all leaned back in their seat, feeling "cool" about the ride they are driving.  They look over at the car next to them, give a head nod and drive off.  He said "see you felt good for that second, thinking that you impressed the person next to you, a person that you will most likely never meet.  So I hope you like that car, because that "cool feeling" in that fancy ride, just cost you a $1000 dollars, just to impress that person, that probably doesn't even care what you drive, that you will never meet and that you probably wouldn't even like even if you were to meet."  So stop trying to keep up with the false ideal image of what the world says or tries to make us feel and think we should be living.  Live within your means.  Humble yourself.  

None of this is YOUR stuff to begin with.  Its ALL God's and he has loaned it to you to manage.  You are a manager of God's things, so be responsible with it.  

Ask yourself this. 

"If YOU were God, and you were looking to promote someone to manage more of your money and things, would you hire yourself?" What does your spending habits, or your check book, or your credit cards say about you?  

This is how you should look at the the things you have.  How do you manage things now?  Are you responsible?  Are you someone that God can trust and rely on to manage his money and build an empire with? Or are you one of his silly kids?  As a parent of many you may realize that there is almost always a slacker in the bunch.  A silly kid? A irresponsible child? You still love that child no matter what, but you just may not entrust that child with much of the family assets because you know they will not handle it maturely.   God looks at us in the same fashion.  If we act our ways, and we show God that we can be responsible with managing the little things in life he has placed in our care, then eventually he will trust us with bigger things and he will bless our financial growth.  

So act your ways, you are not the big boss, you are simply a manager. Act responsible and earn your promotion in Gods financial empire he wants to build for your family, and for generations and generations after you.  You can leave behind an amazing Godly financial legacy to your children and grandchildren, starting today.  Think of the BIG picture, not just about today or tomorrow.  THINK BIG by starting small. 

3.  Get on a BUDGET.  

"For which of you, intending to build a tower, does not sit down first and count the cost, whether he has enough to finish it?" Luke 14:20 (NKJV)

This means budge EVERYTHING.  

One of the things that I came up with that we are going to make use in our home is this.  One of the things that Dave Ramsey said to do when budgeting is to first cut up and get rid of every credit card.  You don't need them.  He has met many very wealthy people along his journey up to the top and down to rock bottom and back to the top again.  Not a one of them that he spoke with ever said "I am a millionaire because I had credit cards and I now live life on "award points"."  Instead, get in a place where you don't need to get in debt, to feel that you need to rely on those "award points" ...but be better and bigger than that.  Get in a place where you can simply smile and pay for anything those points may you think they are paying for, and pay for it in cash yourself. Because in the long run, you are not really getting 'free points." that is just the bait that keeps you coming back to borrow more from them, keeping you as a slave to them (the lender) and remaining in debt, because its your money that is paying for someone else "reward points" and the same with the points that you think you've 'earned' or getting something free with.  So cut up the cards!! If you must have one, then only have ONE card. Have one card for the entire house hold and pay off the balance at the end of the month.  Always! 

However, the best way to budget is to figure up your spending, (bills, groceries, gas, misc. etc). Pay your bills you are going to pay online, by check book etc.  whatever.  Then give yourself a budget of what you can afford to pay for the rest of things, (food, gas, dinners out, entertainment for the month etc.)  Take that amount and put it in an envelope and pay it with cash.  People often find it much easier to spend when they don't physically see the money coming out of their hand.  A wipe of the debt/credit card here and there, and before you know it you have gone over your budge.  If you have cash, you see it, and you become more aware of it going out, and when it does run out, you have no choice but to stop spending.  You can't just keep swiping the card, so you can't go over your budget, you just have to make ends meet without.  

However, I don't like carrying cash around.  When you carry cash around you have some control, but I also like to know where the money is being spent.  You need to keep tabs.  What I came up with in our home is this.  Mark gave me for Mother's Day, a gift card VISA.  Basically, its a money card from Wal-Mart, similar to a prepaid credit card.  It acts as a VISA/DEBT card, but you don't get the credit card history on your credit report. 

I activated my gift VISA card, in which I then paid $3.00 to get a second card in Mark's name. My VISA card was a gift to me to go shopping, but I then turned into something that will in the long run help our family finances. 

They sent to me in the mail a card that looks and acts just like any real VISA or DEBIT card would.  Then we place on that card "prepay" our spending amount for the month.  You have an online view of each transaction, you don't have to carry around cash in your wallet or purse and your spending is accountable for.  Wait that isn't it, it also sends you a text message with a current balance as soon as you make a purchase.  You have 2 cards, one for your spouse and one for you, with access to the same account and funds.  So if your spouse just spend $120 on groceries, the main card holder will get a text message giving the remaining balance on that card.  This way you both keep up with what is coming out and what is left come towards the end of that month.  

4.  SAVE and invest.  {emergency funds, college, health, death etc.} 

"In the house of the wise are stores of choice food and oil." Proverbs 21:20 (NIV)

Find things you can cut out of your every day.  

-Minutes on cell usage.  

- Cable vs Direct TV (or both all together)

- Home, phone, fax 

-Gym memberships if you have a free community gym.

-Cars (humble yourself and your fancy ride)

5. GIVE.

"Bring all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be food in MY house." Malachi 3:10 (NKJV)

PERIOD!

God demands that we tithe 10%  of all given to our storehouse.  He is the MASTER, the mega-lender.  HE is lending everything to us, so cheerfully and trusting bring and give back the first 10% to the MASTER (the church).  

And if you want to really be wise.  Give the first 10% of all you earn to God, the family church, and then put the next 10% of your earnings in savings.  Budget, act your ways and live on 80% of your income (or less).  Most people today, especially and sadly Americans, we live so out of our means, that we spend 120% of our income.  That is a NEGATIVE balance every single month, friends.  Its not healthy, its not biblical and its time that YOU step up and get things on a better and more biblical financial track for your home, family, and future generations.  

Final thought:  Pray for your specific financial needs and commit to specific goals that you would like to accomplish in a specific time frame.  Ask God for wisdom in understanding His plan for your finances.  

That doesn't mean ask God for more money, it means to ask HIM, HIS plan in your financial life and give you the wisdom to manage what HE has put in your trust to manage.  

Only have ONE MASTER.

Our God is a jealous God, he wants to prosper you, but you first have to trust him in all areas of your life.  You can't say to Him "yes daddy, I trust you, but no daddy, not my pearls not my finances, I want control over that all myself." 

Don't settle for the little plastic pearls in life.  Let God reward you with the REAL and bigger pearls He is holding in that other pocket, that you just can't see yet, but have to have trust and faith in.  

Lord, I want to take this time to pray for my family, friends and readers, Lord.  I want to personally ask that those reading this post, Lord, that they get fired up and motivated.  Motivated to live a recession proof kind of life.  A life free of ball and chains.  I life free of financial strain, stress, and hardship.  Lord, we all have made mistakes in dealing with our finances, Lord and they are no different than the rest of our sins.  There are no perfect people.  No one has their finances perfectly in sync.  Lord, that is why we rely on You and ask for Your wisdom and guidance.  Only You can free us from all this debt and build an empire for us to manage and grow in our own homes, but in Your name.  

Lord, You are the one and only master.  I will not settle for the plastic pearls, and I will not force my own children and their children to live with the plastic pearls in life either.  I want to earn and wear the real pearls you have planned for me in my life.  I want to pass on my beautiful pearls to my children and watch them grow and trust You in the same way, Lord.

That motivates me, enough.  

Thank you for the blessings you have already placed in my life, and I know that I often can mismanage Lord, but today I ask for your wisdom on how to manage the things in my life, so to please You.  I want that promotion.  Although, it may not be the promotion I envision..... 'being rich', although it very well could be just that also.  I know that my needs will always be met and that I am already abundantly blessed and spiritually rich.  I have a MANSION made for me in heaven. I am rich! I will never go with out food or clothes, Lord, and so with that, that is all I need to know.  I want to lead by example to my friends, my children, and I am not here to impress anyone I know or don't know, but YOU.  I pray for the same kind of heart and courage to my friends, family and readers to this blog.  Lord, let us rely on YOU to protect us and teach us how to live a happy recession proof life.  Amen.  

My dadda! = my dada!

Is the best my dadda in the world.  

Mommy, is putting first things first these day's which is spending all her waking hours with me.  Which lately is A LOT of waking hours, giving her little no time to blog.  Sorry world, I want her all to myself.

My bubba was supposed to be home tonight. I miss him so much.  Too bad his flight was delayed in Boston today and now I won't get to see him until he gets home from his camp tomorrow afternoon.  I helped mommy get his room all nice and clean for him.  We even washed his sheets on his bed, so he can get that really nice clean smell to snuggle into.  We love that smell.  

Today was a great My Dadda Day.  I only woke up once during the night and I put myself back to sleep, allowing my dadda to get lots of extra sleep.  I gave my dadda his gift before going to bed last night, because I was just so exited and couldn't wait any longer.  My dadda is a pretty simple guy.  He doesn't want or ask for much of anything.  So what made this fun for me and mommy is that we knew no matter what we did for my dadda it would make him feel proud and smile.  

I colored my first card for my dadda.  I did it all by myself and mommy took pictures to prove it.  We framed a picture of me and my dadda for his desk at work.  Just a picture of me and my dadda all by ourselves doing one of our favorite things, swimming and smooching.  I love to kiss my dadda.  Although, his whiskers sometimes leave red marks all over my face and I often get upset about it. In truth if it didn't hurt so much, I'd actually like it.  I just have sensitive skin and my dadda knows and understands that about me.  That's one of the reasons he is so amazing.

My dadda has never once lost his calm or been inpatient with me.  He always takes things lightly and even with little sleep, he still tells me how much he loves me and then shows it with his tender touch and kisses.  

I love laying on my dadda's chest.  The smell of my dadda is such a calming scent.  Feeling so protected and cozy in his big arms and hands.  When my dadda holds me, I feel like I am on top of the world, literately.  

I love watching my dadda read his bible and devotional. We often read books together, its one of our own little favorite things to do.  I sit on his lap and I help him turn the pages.  Its one of those things that I hope to never forget as I grow up.  I love watching my dadda kiss on my mommy.  He is teaching me how a man is to love a girl and how I one day should be loved and treated also.  I love it when my mommy is holding me, and then my dadda comes and chases us around the house.  I laugh so hard my cheeks and tummy start to hurt. 

Its the best feeling in the world when my mommy is holding me and then my dadda wraps his arms around both me and mommy, and then we all take turns giving kisses to each other.  I feel super safe and so loved in the arms of my two favorite people.  

My dadda makes me feel like the most beautiful girl ever.  He tells me how pretty I am and often I find him just smiling at me.  I know its because he just loves me that much.  I wished all the children in the world could feel as loved as I do.  Its really an amazing comfort and joy to feel so loved.  

My dadda is my hero, although he doesn't know it just yet.  I look up to him a lot and I love him a lot too.  Although, right now I am really a mommy's girl, my dadda is still my number one guy in my life, and after him comes my bubba.  I am one blessed and lucky little girl and I know it.  To have my dadda, bubba and mommy in my life.  God knitted together the perfect family for me.  

Today was my dadda's special day.   We took my dadda to the 'world biggest strip club' at 11:15 AM.  It's okay it wasn't one of those kind of strip clubs.  Our church started off a new series this weekend called "The Worlds Largest Strip Club".  Its talking about stripping your spiritual life down so that you can allow God to grow in you more.  Getting rid of baggage, sin, fear, hate, lust, addiction....basically anything in life you are struggling with.  Check out our church website for more www.cbglades.com.

After that we let my dadda do a little shopping at one of his favorite places "Marshall's". While my dadda was shopping, I helped mommy pull anything I could get my hands onto off the racks.  She didn't like it all that much.  I really was just trying to help mommy.  

I started to get fussy because I was hungry and tired, so my dadda dropped my mommy and me off at the house, while he ran to the store and got steaks and stuff to grill for dinner.  When my dadda came home, he came home to two sleeping girls.  While my dadda worked hard on the grill in 100 degree heat outside this hot Florida day, me and mommy got the royal treatment by waking up to a nice dinner sitting out on the table.  You would think it was our day and not my dadda's day. See what I mean? He is just cool like that.  My dadda is a simple man.  He doesn't ask or need much.  He loves us so much that he let us sleep while he made us dinner on his day.  My dadda, you rock! 

After dinner, I sat with my dadda for about 30 seconds and clapped for the Yankee's.  That was the only down side to our wonderful my dadda's day. Boo, Yankee's!!! To help cheer my dadda up since the Yankee's let him down (again), we left the house and went to Cold Stone's for some ice cream.  That was yummy.  

To finish up our day, we hung out in the living room.  I called and talked to my granny and papa in Texas.  I am so excited to spend next week in Texas with them.  Mommy fed me dinner, washed up the dishes and let me give my dadda kisses before putting me down for the night.  

For me it was the best dadda's day yet.  I just hope that my dadda felt as special today as he really is to me.  I love you, my dadda.  Thank you for your unconditional love, protection, hard work, devotion, guidance, grace, patients, understanding, kindness and time that you give me day in and day out, no matter how good or bad your day went, no matter how little sleep you had the night before, and no matter when I push you away and reach for mommy instead.  I still know and feel your love at all times, no matter what, my dadda.  

I love you as big as the sky, up to the moon and back.  

PS:  Hi, this is Morgan's mom, remember me? You know the host of this blog?  I wanted to add in that my honey is one amazing father.  He has been amazing and so accepting and understanding of Hunter.  Such a leader in this family.  Loyal. He makes me proud and I am so thankful that God made him just for me, just for my kids and just for this family.  Although humanly not perfect, he is indeed perfect in every way for us. 

Oh, and Morgan, really does call him "my dada", but it really sounds like "my dad-duh or dad-da" and I liked 'dadda' better written to remind us when looking back on this photo of her little voice, and how she sounded and spoke during this age in her life.  It's too sweet and special to forget the sound of her today.  

Happy Father's Day, honey! 

sour mood and a smiling dragonfly

I haven't wanted to post lately because in truth, I am just tired.  If you follow me on twitter or facebook, you know what I am referring to.  Those of you that do not, let me explain.  

My 14 month old Butterfly, is either having nightmares, growing pains or teething in her big daddy teeth.  She has been waking up many (MANY) times during the night screaming, since last Friday.  She had a little bit of a runny nose so I gave her Tylenol and that helped for a couple of nights, but that's it.  

Last night, was the hardest night yet.  I was up, and up, and up, so many times.  I just wanted to scream and cry.  I am one that doesn't do well without sleep and or with many interrupted periods in my sleep. I need my sleep. 

I was so tired last night, that after rocking and rocking and rocking Butterfly,  I fell asleep in the rocking chair with her in my arms.  She on the other hand was fighting so hard to not shut her eyes that with any little sound, move, clearing of the throat or swallow, she heard it.  She would open her eyes to let you know "don't even think about it, mommy" kind of look.  If she were in pain, you would think she would still fuss while I held her, but she doesn't. She just lays there wanting to be held.  I even broke the night feeding rule and gave her another bottle last night.  It didn't do the trick either.  

Finally around almost 4:00 AM, I get her down and I slept out on the couch.  Once I heard hubby up getting ready for work, I stumbled off to my bed to crash.  But of course, she hears anything and everything.  She is such a light sleeper.... because we have the 'white noise' machine in every room, and this girl still hears everything.  She hears daddy moving around and then I hear that awful sound, like the worst alarm clock on the planet, a screaming Butterfly on the baby monitor. I cringe, I roll over, I turn the volume down wear I can barely hear her.  Hoping and praying she would just lay back down and go to sleep.  

Not happening.  

We are up, I am exhausted and VERY irritable at this point.  This is when you do not want to ask me something or try to talk to me.  I am mean. A big cranky bear.  The demon in me comes to surface. I can't control her.  

Then to top that off, I get a call from my agent before the office even opens, that a client that I have worked with in the past, and recently ran into at a jazz lounge a few weeks ago, wants to book me for a job down in the keys tomorrow.  Not only are they going to pay a modeling fee, they offered me and my family a couple nights stay at The Cheeca Lodge & Spa. I have been there before and I love it there.  They are renovating the place, and said we could come and stay once it opened back up.  I quickly told my agent "sold" without taking a moment to think it through. Anytime we can get a free room and board like that, I am game.  

I then start calling and scrambling around to search for a young teen that was out for the summer that could travel down to the keys with me to help watch Morgan during my shoot time.  I find one.  I was told that I would have to drive up tonight for tomorrows shoot.  I of course am on it, tired and all.  Totally talking to myself, "okay so get Morgan down at this time for a nap, Ill sleep during that time also, Ill need to pack this and this and that. Try to get on the road by this hour and be down there by that hour." etc. 

As I am doing all of this, I am waiting to hear from my agent for the details.  Finally, 11:00 AM rolls around and I get the "text."  Yes, my agent and I text.  She tells me that the client didn't want short hair, and has changed her mind now and is booking another girl.  WHAT???

My hair was only maybe three (3) inches, AT MOST, longer when she ran into me a couple weeks ago. It was the first layer cut I had just gotten and posted on my blog.  If she wanted long hair to begin with, what was she thinking to want to book me in the first place?  My hair wasn't long when I saw her a few weeks ago.  Needless to say, the client thinks my hair is MUCH shorter than she "recalled" and wants someone with longer hair for the job.  

Um, yea.  I am totally ticked.  Makes me want to march out and go by those clip on extensions I recently mentioned there other day on here, so I can pop them in and say "here you go, LONG HAIR!!!"  Magic!! 

SOUR MOOD! 

A sour mood is exactly what I have been put in by the lack of sleep, a lost booking and a free stay at this beautiful place with my family.   

And didn't I mention all of this to you when I asked for your votes on the short hair?  My agent warned me.  Clients for whatever reason like Misty Rice with the longer hair.  Why? Because I am stereotyped as the "sexy blond girl".  There aren't many blonds out here, so I work well when it comes to booking the blond jobs.  But there are a couple of blonds that rock short hair and seem to work just fine.  But then again, its because that is "their" role, the short hair blond.  I am known as Misty Rice, the LONG hair blond. Sigh.

Whatever, it's part of the business, and I say their loss...but inside I am banging my head on the table saying "who am I kidding, its totally MY loss here." I lost x-amount of dollars that my family could use, and I lost a free weekend stay with my family in the Keys at a really hot location. Its my loss, all over HAIR! 

Ugh! 

Baby girl in the mix of it all is screaming and fussing the whole time, so I simply pick her up and say to her "we need a breather girl" lets go outside.  I take her out and let her crawl and walk around in the back yard. She loves being outside and loves looking at the decoy geese in the lake, while points and says "duck".  Too cute.  Oh and she is starting to say things with two syllables now, like 'mommy' and 'baby'.  I love it.   

As she is crawling around and pointing at the birds. I sit on the chase and try to feel the warmth of the weather.  When all of the sudden I see a beautiful dragonfly.  I love dragonflies.  They are such unique and beautiful insects. 

The little guy is sitting perched up on a branch and I swear (although, I shouldn't) it was looking right at me, tilting its head and appeared to be smiling.  I spoke to it for a few seconds and asked if I could grab my camera and take it's picture.  As I get up and walk slowly away to not scare it,  I go and grab my camera.  I thought for sure I would come back and it would be gone, but it was still sitting there.

I start taking its picture, but I didn't have my telephoto lens on, just my 55mm, so I really had to get up close.  I slowly get closer and closer, and I am telling you, this dragonfly was looking right at me.  It was tilting it's head and just totally content with me taking its picture, with this huge black camera right up its in face.  It was awesome.  

I suddenly found myself relaxed, smiling and over the fact that I only got 3 hours of sleep and lost a booking at the moment.  I was so intrigued by the dragonfly and excited with the pictures I got, and how cool it looked up close in my lens.  

Shortly after, I was putting baby girl down for her nap, I couldn't even think about going to sleep myself. Instead, I sat there rocking baby girl and gave thanks to God for placing a little sunshine in my rainy day, sour mood and grumpiness today.  Okay, so its not really raining here today, in my world it was raining today. I was pouting and acting as a child.  Then God sent me a simple little dragonfly, something he knew I would enjoy and that would make me smile and ease my frustrations, as HIS child. 

(I take that back, just as I thought I would get Morgan and go to the park, its starts to down pour!! So it is actually raining on my day here!) LOL!

It's the little things in life like that, that God wants us to stop and enjoy.  Seeing me smile, I know brought Him joy.  Something He created, a little smiling dragonfly, possibly just for ME, because He knew how much I would appreciate and enjoy that little dragonfly face. 

That's my daddy, my heavenly father.  He knows me best! 

And to top it off.... after rethinking things through about this loss of a booking down in the Keys.  It was indeed no ones loss.  They got their model with the "long" hair, and I get to go use my spa certificate and get an hour long Swedish massage tonight.  Whoot! Whoot! 

Now, take a look at these pictures.  They are not the same photo cropped and zoomed.  This little guy let me take several pictures of it's beautiful smiling face.  Let it bring a smile to your face also.  Enjoy.  

(Click on images to zoom in)

(Do you see it smiling at you too?)

PS:  Who knows, that dragonfly's entire purpose may have just been for me today.  Ever think about that? Maybe it wasn't, but maybe it was? Thank you little dragonfly for bringing a joy and a smile to my face today.